…finding something like this in your gmail:
when i stayed on the offensive i was vulnerable in a totally new way. i was putting it out there and seeing what i would get back in return. there was greater force, clearer direction, and a sense of truly fighting for what i wanted. i donâ€™t think iâ€™ve ever acted that way before. instead iâ€™ve always defaulted to reacting, which generally comes out as a â€œmoodâ€ or â€œemotional state.â€ in fact itâ€™s a very neutered way of being.
through the rehearsal i also understood viscerally (and dramaturgically) how Ben is the protagonist in the play, even though everything seems to be happening to him. in the end heâ€™s nearly brought to his knees, until the last scene when he does finally win the fight to count & bring meaning into his life.
that’s it. thanks again & see you tonight!
–email from Travis Shakespeare, actor